what does it mean when you keep injuring your hands?
All week I have been injuring my hands. Every knuckle on my right hand is either torn, scraped, or burned. And then last night I got a paper cut on that painful flesh ledge between thumb and index finger. I feel it must mean something, beyond clumsiness. Here are some theories:
1. There is too much aggression in my doing/holding/making.
2. There is not enough aggression in my doing/holding/making, and these small violences are telling me to do/hold/make harder.
3. There is something I'm trying to grasp or hold on to, and it is hurting me.
4. There is something I'm trying to grasp or hold on to, and I am hurting it.
5. My right hand doesn't know what my left hand is doing.
6. My right hand has become arrogant. My making has become arrogant.
7. I am not being careful enough, not paying enough attention.
8. I am paying too much attention, and still getting hurt.
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My mother taught me that not being able to forgive yourself and move on is a form of conceit: too much pride, masquerading as humility.
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It's funny how much we enjoy pain! And sort of squish our toes in the ooze of it. And then, crestfallen, my toes are all dirty.
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Some nice things of late, of note:
+ The poems of this person.
+ This person nudging this person and this thing winding up here.
+ Putting grapes in your cereal instead of predictable bananas or berries.
+ Beatrice saying that B stands for Beatrice. When asked what else B stands for, she says Mommy and Daddy. She's not wrong.
+ It's not that I'm not political, it's just that I'm still trying to figure out how to be a human being, what my mouth is for.
+ And also I'm not political.
+ The love of a good man.
1. There is too much aggression in my doing/holding/making.
2. There is not enough aggression in my doing/holding/making, and these small violences are telling me to do/hold/make harder.
3. There is something I'm trying to grasp or hold on to, and it is hurting me.
4. There is something I'm trying to grasp or hold on to, and I am hurting it.
5. My right hand doesn't know what my left hand is doing.
6. My right hand has become arrogant. My making has become arrogant.
7. I am not being careful enough, not paying enough attention.
8. I am paying too much attention, and still getting hurt.
*
My mother taught me that not being able to forgive yourself and move on is a form of conceit: too much pride, masquerading as humility.
*
It's funny how much we enjoy pain! And sort of squish our toes in the ooze of it. And then, crestfallen, my toes are all dirty.
*
Some nice things of late, of note:
+ The poems of this person.
+ This person nudging this person and this thing winding up here.
+ Putting grapes in your cereal instead of predictable bananas or berries.
+ Beatrice saying that B stands for Beatrice. When asked what else B stands for, she says Mommy and Daddy. She's not wrong.
+ It's not that I'm not political, it's just that I'm still trying to figure out how to be a human being, what my mouth is for.
+ And also I'm not political.
+ The love of a good man.
5 Comments:
I googled your title because I wanted to know the same thing as you. I ripped my fingernail on my index finger, poked a hole in my in my thumb, then burned my middle finger. All this I think happened in like just over 24 hours. I am so happy that at least one person on the world wide web wondered the same thing.
Thank you for sharing,
Keeyun Rondo
Ditto. Searching because the same thing happened to me. My right hand is a *mess*. I like your theories, and I also wonder, "not enough potassium?" because that could be a purely physical reason. Will buy bananas and see. :)
Me too! I've heard of this happening from yogi friends years ago. Your list sounds about the same. I'vw been cutting my finger too much lately and find #1 speaking to me. :)
I also, came here because of multiple hand injuries in a twenty-four hour period. Sliced tip of left middle, ripped open top crease on palm side of thumb, and then got stuck by microscopic glass on the floor while doing yoga on my left palm. Weird.
This is quite interesting. I've managed to injure every finger on my hand except my thumb. I've got torn nails, busted knuckles, burns, gym cuts, and I think I broke one of my knuckles. I was thinking maybe my equilibrium was off. Because today I gashed my toe on my bed. Is there disruption in my universe? Or little signs from my universe?
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